Ok friendship… it’s a funny thing. Your friends are the people you do the most with. You probably talk to them more than your mum! Put it this way, they are a seriously massive part of your life. If you have been with me from the beginning, you know about my best friend from last year. I don’t think I ever gave her a name so I’ll call her Skye for blog purposes. So Skye and I were really tight last year. We were best friends, had some amazing sleepovers and confided heaps to each other! But if you’ve read some of my posts from last year you will know that my group which had Skye in it doesn’t exist any more and we all went to different groups.
Is it normal to miss close friends? I missed Skye a lot. We changed groups in the last couple of weeks of term so I saw her in the Christmas Holidays and when we went back to school we had heaps of classes together but my new friends were also in those classes so I sat with them. She also had a few of her new friends in those classes, so she sat with her new friends too.
And so our separate lives began! I thought we would still talk, like even just over text. But I was always the one starting the conversations and she would always just stop responding a few texts in. We never talked at school, she didn’t even make eye contact with me, smile at me as we passed in the hall ways.
I missed her A LOT! I’m not going to lie it was really tough seeing her everyday but feeling like to her, I was invisible. It was tough being in the same classes which we had, had so much fun in last year and seeing her have fun with someone else. Now maybe I’m just jealous as I am in this terrific new group but still don’t feel like I’m particularly close to any of them, not like they all are with each other. It’s not like I have a best friend in that group. Yet she seemed to move on so flawlessly. I think what was so hard was missing her so much but feeling like she had moved on and didn’t miss me at all.
Ok I promise all this has a point to it!
I learnt to move on. I still missed her and it was still difficult. Especially at certain times but I got used to the fact that we weren’t really friends anymore.
Then we I ended up sitting next to one of my friends that’s also friends with Skye so we were each on one side of my other friend. We were all sort of talking but at the end at she asked me a question. I just realised how silly this probably sounds but oh well! We started having a conversation and I mentioned catching up in the holidays and she seemed to really like the idea.
Now as great as this is. It makes it hard. I had just got used to not having her as a friend and not talking to her and now I don’t know how to feel! I guess you can think of it like this…
So when I was little I had this skirt. It was rainbow and all puffy and I adored it I wore it absolutely everywhere. But then I grew out of it and it was really hard, I kept trying to try it on but it just didn’t fit. If I found the skirt in my size today, would I wear it now? Probably not. If the skirt turned into a really pretty dress then yes. But even if it doesn’t, I would still have all the lovely memories of that skirt and the things that happened when I was wearing it.
So I guess it’s the same with Skye, we don’t really fit any more. She has change A LOT! But I would still really love to have her as a friend. However if that skirt doesn’t turn into a pretty dress then I will have to be ok with just having all the memories we made.
So yeah I hope you guys got something out of that! If you have any similar experiences or can give me some advice I would really appreciate it! Just comment it in the comments below!
P.S Guys the photos in this post were my first attempts at flat lays so please tell me what you think and any tips in the comments!